In our darkest hour, In my deepest despair, Will you still care, Will you be there, In my trials, And my tribulations, Through our doubts, And frustrations, In my violence, In my turbulence, Through my fear, And my confessions, In my anguish and my pain, Through my joy and my sorrow, In the promise, Of another tomorrow, I’ll never let you part, For you’re always in my heart.

Tuesday, November 29, 2005

... PICK YOUR BiRtHdAy MoNtH ...

Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses.Likes to criticize.Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts.Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed.Ratherreserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds.Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children.Loyal.Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very Stubborn and money cautious.

Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever.Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy.Temperamental.Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom.Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt.Gets angry really easily but choose not to show it. Dislike unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn.Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp.Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside.Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift! . ! Tries to learn to show emotions.

Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved.Sensitive.Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity.Aggressive when provoked.Sensitive to others. Loves to hel p others. Not easily angered.Trustworthy.Defends others.Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others.Varied interests.Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves attention.Strong belief system.Hasty in trusting others. Loves home decors. Musically talented.Depends on friends.Loves special things. Moody and easily hurt. A giving lover.Very loyal.Deep Thinker.Feels deeply. A romantic.Loves to be loved. Thrifty. Loves down time alone.

Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends to regret.Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality.Loves attention.Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems.Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous.Emotional.Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving Motivates ones elf and others.Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.

Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated.Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention.Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint.Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck.Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts.Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children.Hardworking. High spirited.Spendthrift.

Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind.Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best.Temperamental.Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative.Daydreamer.Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding. Able to show character.Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored.Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive.Stubborn.

Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood.Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation.Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings.Tactful.Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable.Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets.Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving.Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy.Wary and sharp.Judges people through observations. Hard! working. No difficulties in studying.Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends.Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends.Not aggressive unless provoked.Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless.Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others.Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride of oneself. Thirsty for praises.Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous & Observant.Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense.Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring.Loves to make friends.. ( THaTs ME ) ..

Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized.Likes to point out people's mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn.Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed.Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident.Sensitive. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable.Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves sports, leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings.Very choosy, especially in relationships.!Systematic.

Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to takes things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Does not Lie Or Pretend.Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends.Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated.Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance.Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and ! easily jealous.Concerned.Loves outdoors. Just and fair.Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence.Loves children.

Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward.Unique and brilliant. Ex traordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in personality.Secretive.Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable. Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciates praises.High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and emotions.Romantic.Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities.Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions.Unpredictable.

Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions.Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations.Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention.Loves to be loved.Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egoistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions.Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical

Wednesday, November 23, 2005

خواطر 1

هل يمكن ان تكون الحياة يوما فارغة ..لا شيء يملؤها مهما حاولنا ان نشغل انفسنا باشياء هي في الاغلب ليست ذات اهمية بالنسبة لنا و في الحقيقة لا تعني لنا شيئا ..ولكنها على اقل تقدير تقوم بواجبها في تلك اللحظة فلا تسمح لنا بالتفكير لمدة بسيطة كيف اصبحت الحياة فارغة فجاة و تبدا الافكار الجيدة منها و السيئة تاخذنا من مكان الى مكان و من موقف الى موقف و من مدينة الى مدينة و من ذكرى الى ذكرى اخرى ... و نضيع بعد ذلك و نضل عن طريق العودة الى الواقع .. و فجاة نعي ما نفكر و نشكر الله على جميع الاحوال ..

ما الذي يجعل الحياة فارغة .. لم اكن اتوقع ان مثل هذا الامر من الممكن ان يتحقق و لكن الان انا اشعر به في كل لحظة في حياتي ... ان البعد عن الله عز وجل هو من احد الاسباب و اخطرها و لكنني احاول القيام بالواجبات دائما ..لن اصبح ملتزما و لا ارى نفسي هكذا للاسف .. و ادعو الله ان يهديني دوما و لكن ما يجعل هذا الشعور يراودني هو ليس البعد عن الله و الحمد لله على ذلك ... و لكن عندما يفقد الانسان منا شخص مهم بالنسبة له او لاخصص الموقف ..عندما يفقد الرجل اهم امراة في حياته ... عندئذ يدرك الرجل ان حياته فارغة ...

لقد بدا شعوري هذا بعد فقداني لروحي الاولى ..امي ( الله يرحمها) ... هذه المراه العظيمة التي لا تكفيني اوراق او اقلام الدنيا حتى اصفها او اكفيها حقها .. لقد قامت بجميع واجباتها الدينية و الدنيوية على اتم و جه و اكمله ... رحمك لله و تغمد روحك الجنة الواسعة و اسكنك فسيح جناتك و نقاك من الذنوب و الخطايا كما ينقى الثوب الابيض من الدنس .... كم كنت ان اتمنى ان اكون بجانبها في تلك للحظة و ان اسلم عليها و ان اسمعها تذكر اسمي على لسانها و ان امسك بيدها ..لكن هذه مشيئة الله سبحانه و تعالى ان اكون في مدينة اخرى اقوم بما تمنته هي الا و احصل على شهادة الماجستير ... الحمد لله على كل شيء .. ... لا اخفيكم لقد بدات الافكار تراودني بكثرة الان و يجب علي الخروج لتغيير حالتي قليلا ... لاغيب عن الواقع لبضع ساعات ........

Monday, November 21, 2005

....الى كل محب عاشق....

لا تندم على حب عشته...حتى ولو صارت ذكرى تؤلمك...فإذا كانت الزهور قد جفت وضاع عبيرها ولم يبقى منها غير الأشواك فلا تنسى أنها منحتك عطراً جميلاً أسعدك...

لا تكسر أبدا كل الجسور مع من تحب...فربما شاءت الأقدار لكما يوماً لقاء يوماً آخر يعيد مامضى ويصل ما انقطع...فإذا كان العمر الجميل قد رحل...فمن يدري ربما انتظرك عمر أجمل...

وإذا قررت يوما أن تترك حبيباً فلا تترك له جرحاً فمن أعطانا قلباً لا يستحق أبدا منا أن نغرس فيه سهماً او نترك له لحظه الم تشقيه... وما أجمل أن تبقى بيننا لحظات الزمن الجميل... وإذا فرقت الأيام بينكما فلا تتذكر لمن كنت تحب غير كل إحساس صادق...ولا تتحدث عنه إلا بكل ماهو رائع ونبيل...فقد أعطاك قلباً...وأعطيته عمرا وليس هناك أغلى من القلب والعمر في حياة الإنسان...وإذا جلست يوماً وحيداً تحاول أن تجمع حولك ظلال أيام جميلة عشتها مع من تحب، اترك بعيداً كل مشاعر الألم والوحشة التي فرقت بينكما... حاول أن تجمع في دفاترك كل الكلمات الجميلة التي سمعتها ممن تحب...وكل الكلمات الصادقة التي قلتها لمن تحب...واجعل في أيامك مجموعة من الصور الجميلة لهذا الإنسان الذي سكن قلبك يوماً... ملامحه... وبريق عينيه الحزين...وابتسامته في لحظة صفاء...ووحشته في لحظه ضيق...والأمل الذي كبر بينكما يوماً...وترعرع حتى وإن كان قد ذبل ومات... إذا سألوك يوماً عن إنسان أحببته فلا تقل سراً كان بينكما...ولا تحاول ابداً تشويه الصورة الجميلة لهذا الإنسان الذي أحببته اجعل من قلبك مخبأ سرياً لكل اسرار هو حكاياته فالحب أخلاق قبل أن يكون مشاعر... وإذا شاءت الأقدار واجتمع الشمل يوماً فلا تبدأ بالعتاب والهجاء والشجن وحاول أن تتذكر آخر لحظه حب بينكما لكي تصل الماضي بالحاضر ولا تفتش عن أشياء مضت لان الذي ضاع ...ضاع...والحاضر أهم كثيراً من الماضي...ولحظة اللقاء أجمل بكثير من ذكريات وداع موحش...

...The LiFe Can Be ChAnGed In A MoMeNt ...

One day, when I was a freshman in high school,
I saw a kid from my class was walking home from school.
His name was Kyle.
It looked like he was carrying all of his books
I thought to myself, "Why would anyone bring home all his books on a Friday? He must really be a nerd."
I had quite a weekend planned (parties and a football game with my friends tomorrow afternoon), so I shrugged my shoulders and went on.
As I was walking, I saw a bunch of kids running toward him
They ran at him, knocking all his books out of his arms and tripping him so he landed in the dirt.
His glasses went flying, and I saw them land in the grass about ten feet from him.
He looked up and I saw this terrible sadness in his eyes
My heart went out to him. So, I jogged over to him and as he crawled around looking for his glasses, and I saw a tear in his eye.
As I handed him his glasses, I said, "Those guys are jerks.They really should get lives."
He looked at me and said, "Hey thanks!".There was a big smile on his face.
It was one of those smiles that showed real gratitude.
I helped him pick up his books, and asked him where he lived.
As it turned out, he lived near me, so I asked him why I had never seen him before.
He said he had gone to private school before now.
I would have never hung out with a private school kid before.
We talked all the way home, and I carried some of his books.
He turned out to be a pretty cool kid.
I asked him if he wanted to play a little football with my friends.
He said yes.
We hung out all weekend and the more I got to know Kyle, the more I liked him, and my friends thought the same of him.
Monday morning came, and there was Kyle with the huge stack of books again.
I stopped him and said, "Boy, you are gonna really build some serious muscles with this pile of books everyday!" He just laughed and handed me half the books.
Over the next four years, Kyle and I became best friends.
When we were seniors, we began to think about college.
Kyle decided on Georgetown, and I was going to Duke.
I knew that we would always be friends, that the miles would never be a problem.
He was going to be a doctor, and I was going for business on a football scholarship.
Kyle was valedictorian of our class.
I teased him all the time about being a nerd.
He had to prepare a speech for graduation.
I was so glad it wasn't me having to get up there and speak Graduation day, I saw Kyle.
He looked great. He was one of those guys that really found himself during high school.
He filled out and actually looked good in glasses. He had more dates than I had and all the girls loved him.
Boy, sometimes I was jealous.
Today was one of those days.
I could see that he was nervous about his speech.
So, I smacked him on the back and said, "Hey, big guy, you'll be great!" He looked at me with one of those looks (the really grateful one) and smiled.
"Thanks," he said.
As he started his speech, he cleared his throat, and began "Graduation is a time to thank those who helped you make it through those tough years. Your parents, your teachers, your siblings, maybe a coach...but mostly your friends...I am here to tell all of you that being a friend to someone is the best gift you can give them. I am going to tell you a story."
I just looked at my friend with disbelief as he told the story of the first day we met.
He had planned to kill himself over the weekend.
He talked of how he had cleaned out his locker so his Mom wouldn't have to do it later and was carrying his stuff home.
He looked hard at me and gave me a little smile.!
"Thankfully, I was saved.
My friend saved me from doing the unspeakable."
I heard the gasp go through the crowd as this handsome, popular boy told us all about his weake! st moment.
I saw his Mom and dad looking at me and smiling that same grateful smile.
Not until that moment did I realize it's depth.
Never underestimate the power of your actions.
With one small gesture you can change a person's life.
For better or for worse. God puts us all in each other's lives to impact one another in some way. Look for God in others.
"Friends are angels who lift us to our feet when our wings have trouble remembering how to fly."
There is no beginning or end.. Yesterday is history.
Tomorrow is mystery.
Today is a gift.

Saturday, November 19, 2005

... A Thaughtfull Story ...

Once upon a time, there was a small town where everyone lived as a family.
The town was consisted of few families who also worked in it. Some families were bigger than others, more powerful, & some had spent more time working in town.
Each of the families had a shop & a farm. But the size of their shops & farms differed.
One of the families was the biggest in size, the most powerful, its members differed in years working in town, had a small shop, & they had the biggest farm of all families (which was feeding the family & bring them lots of money from selling eggs, chicken, milk, butter, sheep, & cows to the other families).
All other families were smaller in size with medium & little power, less in members, & years of work in town. They also had bigger shops with very small farms that only served their own needs.
The old mayor of this town retired, & a new mayor was in charge.
This new mayor wanted to be fair with everyone in town, everyone who'd visit, the country's ruler, & of course also be pleased with his fairness in doing his hard work.
With his learning of the town's ins & outs, he discovered lots of ways of improvements in town & its people. He went through with some & was having difficulties with others.
One of the days had come when a very old cash cow of the biggest & most powerful family had to be slaughtered & sold as meat.
When this family did so, one of the new very small families went to the mayor asking for the old cow's profit to be split among the whole town, with asking for their small family to get the biggest chunk of that money. The mayor listened to them till the end. And when the mayor reminded this small family that he had given its members more subsidies than all of the other older members of all of the families, they were not yet convinced, & still wanted a big chunk of the old cow's profit.
Then, it was clear to the fair mayor that the sweet talk won't give any benefit with this greedy family. And he told them that they do not deserve any of the old cow's profit since it wasn't even theirs & it was the profit of the family that had the great old cash cow.
End of the logical happy-ending-story.
But looking at the devil's advocate:
The sweet mayor -for one reason or another- gives this small family what they wanted & gives everyone a share of the old cow's profit. Giving the biggest chunk to the smallest family, leaving the old cow's owners with a very small profit of their hard working years with their cash cow to be split upon their large family.
Shocked with how the fair mayor took such a decision, the cow's owners went to him asking for justice to be made.
The mayor, as sweet as he could be, turned them down by saying that everything is down, it's just an old cow, & the small family needs the money to grow.
The cow's family replied that no matter what, the cow's profit is logically theirs. Moreover, their members are not getting the same subsidies from the mayor as did the small new family. Which with the cow's profit, their members would do greater work in town by getting better cash to live in the better level that the new small family members are pampered with from their beginning.
Not answering to the cow's family, the mayor did not do a thing.
Throughout the past years, the members of the biggest & most powerful family had received lots of invitations & requests to travel, live, & work in better levels & subsidies in other towns nearby. Loyally enough, these requests were studied a bit but rejected believing that "Family" comes first, that they have the best town, the best future, & the best fair mayor they could have.
But with the madness in the air, the sad frustrated unjustly-treated family went back home to pack & leave to the nearest town. Not just to live in a higher level, with lots of extra subsidies & improvements. They wanted fairness.
With such recklessness, the town collapsed with the move of its biggest & most powerful family & farm to another town leaving this town with a troubled mayor, a great gap in the town's structure, some small families & one very new small greedy one.
Moral of the story: No matter how loyal & hard working you are, people might take you for grunted. If you were, ask for your rights & do something about it.

Tuesday, November 15, 2005

... The WorK Like U never thaink about it THAT WaY ...

After 2 years of devoted service, an Employee realized that he has not been promoted, no salary increase no commendation and that the company is not doing any thing about it. One morning he walk up to his manager and after exchanging greetings, he told his manager his observation. The boss looked at him, laughed and asked him to sit down saying; My friend, you have not worked here for even one day. The man was surprised to hear this, but the manager went on to explain. Let me explain….
Manager:- How many days are there in a year?
Employee:- 365 days and some times 366
Manager:- how many hours make up a day?
Employee:- 24 hours
Manager:- How long do you work in a day?
Employee:- 8am to 4pm. i. e. 8 hours a day.
Manager:- So, what fraction of the day do you work in hours?
Employee:- (He did some arithmetic and said 8/24 hours ie. 1/3(one third)
Manager:- That is nice of you! What is one-third of 366 days?
Employee:- 122 (1/3x366 - 122 in days)
Manager:- Do you come to work on weekends?
Employee:- No sir
Manager:- How many days are there in a year that are weekends?
Employee:- 52 Thursdays and 52 Fridays equals to 104 days
Manager:- Thanks for that. If you remove 104 days from 122 days,how manydays do you now have?
Employee:- 18 days.
Manager:- OK! I do give you 1 week sick leave every year approximately. Now remove that 7 days from the 18 days left. How many days do you have remaining?
Employee:- 11 days
Manager:- Do you work on Eid holidays?
Employee:- No sir!
Manager:- Deduct the Eid holidays (11-10).... 5 days for Eid al Fitr and 5 days for Eid al Adha.
Manager:- So how many days are left?
Employee:- 1 day sir!
Manager:- Do you come to work on the (National day )?
Employee:- No sir!
Manager:- So how many days are left?
Employee:- None sir!
Manager:- So, what are you claiming for?
Employee:- I understood Sir ! Thank you sir for all the money you have been giving me. I am sorry for trying to steal from the Company!!!


Tuesday, November 01, 2005

...{{ To My DeAr SiStEr }} ...

it is somthing woderful to have a sister ... it is more wonderful if this sister is a great and adorable sister ... it is the only good thing left in my life after my mother passed away ( allah yer7amha) ... since my mother(god bless her soul) and my sister (shorooq) ( sunrise) is taking care of the responsibilites of the house is true that I am not living in the house because of my studying but I always come in the vecation ..and the way she can handle two old people who want everything by the book is great ... she is taking my mother place and I worried because I dont want her to see what my mother saw from these habits and old regulation of the old people but honestly I admire her alot .. I hope she will finish her degree and to have a great husband who can really appreciate her the way she deserve ...
at the last day of ramadan I am saying that I love my sister and I wesh the happeniss to her all her life inshalla ....


and thats the bottom line cause salah said so ....